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hey people.
i've been feeling better lately, thanks for all the great things you guys have said to me.
you're amazing, you know that? :)

i guess, i've realised that this is one of those things that happen.
our friendship won't go back to what it was, it will not, it cannot.
even though people say it will, trust me i know.
but hey, i'll be able to look back at those memories we had together, and realise those 7 years weren't wasted.

moving on to more cheerful things.
i went to spring yesterday and saw so many people.
wilson was doing some hip-hop performance, melissa & eunice was there (:D !), some aunty from my church, mark and his 'girlfriend' (?) he might be lying to me, blah blah. a few more i can't remember.
bought a skirt, my mom complains its too short adasdafsdfsblahwhateveritsmymoney.

why is it that everybody in kuching goes to spring.
its like the only place to hang out, besides boulevard (boulevard is for ahlians!)
kuching is so sad.

monthly test is starting on wednesday.
agh, i haven't studied ANYTHING at all. no joke.

"things fall apart so that other things can fall together."
♥banana.

aw. sigh. blah.

i'm so sad. so absolutely freaking saddened.
i'm so sad right now i probably make emo kids seem happy.
and i'm on the verge of bursting into tears.
what would you do if you found out that your good friend of 7 years actually hated you?
thats kinda what happened here.
i didn't know she felt that way. i didn't even know i did those things to her that made her feel that way.
she didn't tell me. i didn't ask.
it was probably both our faults, but i'm gonna blame myself here. i could have been a better friend.
i could have cared.

speaking to all you people out there.
care for your friends. ask them if they seem like they have a problem or something.
or what happened to me is gonna happen to you.

so right now. i'm not sure what to do.
should i confront her? speak to her? send her a letter? or just ignore it?
i'm just so miserable and i don't know what to do.
oh, and i'm hurt. that she didn't tell me what she felt.
if she really hated me that much, she could at least have shown it.

.. i honestly didn't know she felt that way about me. that the things i did made her hate me. i'm seriously sorry after reading all she wrote. honestly. i didn't know. i don't know what went wrong between us, but it just did. is this one of those friendships that just.. disappear? i don't want to lose her as a friend, but sometimes, it happens and life goes on.

but right now.
life just sucks majorly.
:(

somebody made me cry in school today! :(

during art period, othniel made me sit down and then he told me a scary story.
i wanted to run away but then idiot babi people forced me to stay.
babi you othniel!

i seriously cannot stand scary stories okay, i am probably more wimp than syed when it comes to scary stuff. uggh!
i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate scary things.

so he told me the story and then at the end.. BOO! shouted at me.
IT SCARED THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME OKAY WTFWTFWTF

and then i cried. for about 1 or 2 minutes. after that i was angry a little, but then i started laughing. ugh ugh ugh. i hope that teaches you people a lesson to never scare me!

oh, i forgot to mention, before i started crying, i instinctly slapped othniel after he shouted the boo! at me.
sorry for slapping your face othniel.

scary movies/books/whatever suckkk!
i don't see whats so great about being scared shitless until you can't sleep at night.

♥banana.

update: oh yeah, today, i passed by john paul and i said hi to him, then he was like, "hey babe!", i think, and i laughed. its very funny and so cute, the way he says it :D hahaha.

there you go.
i think i need to paint that in extra large letters all over my room wall.
i'm letting go of all the pointless drama in my life.
do whatever you want.
just make sure you take responsibility for your own actions.
and don't drag me into your personal problems. aight? :)

goodbye drama, hello life.

i wonder if and when some people will finally realise that..?
stop playing around, if you're really that lonely, go buy a parrot.

today was a very annoying day. don't ask me why. it just is.
i have annoying days, and happy days, and moody days, and sometimes just plain pissy days. today was a very annoying day.
one day you will realise, that not everything you want, you can and must have. and you will have to deal with it.
some people, just really need to grow up, seriously.
i think you're old enough to be doing things for yourself, and not relying on other people.

♥banana.

hey people.
i've been feeling better lately, thanks for all the great things you guys have said to me.
you're amazing, you know that? :)

i guess, i've realised that this is one of those things that happen.
our friendship won't go back to what it was, it will not, it cannot.
even though people say it will, trust me i know.
but hey, i'll be able to look back at those memories we had together, and realise those 7 years weren't wasted.

moving on to more cheerful things.
i went to spring yesterday and saw so many people.
wilson was doing some hip-hop performance, melissa & eunice was there (:D !), some aunty from my church, mark and his 'girlfriend' (?) he might be lying to me, blah blah. a few more i can't remember.
bought a skirt, my mom complains its too short adasdafsdfsblahwhateveritsmymoney.

why is it that everybody in kuching goes to spring.
its like the only place to hang out, besides boulevard (boulevard is for ahlians!)
kuching is so sad.

monthly test is starting on wednesday.
agh, i haven't studied ANYTHING at all. no joke.

"things fall apart so that other things can fall together."
♥banana.

aw. sigh. blah.

i'm so sad. so absolutely freaking saddened.
i'm so sad right now i probably make emo kids seem happy.
and i'm on the verge of bursting into tears.
what would you do if you found out that your good friend of 7 years actually hated you?
thats kinda what happened here.
i didn't know she felt that way. i didn't even know i did those things to her that made her feel that way.
she didn't tell me. i didn't ask.
it was probably both our faults, but i'm gonna blame myself here. i could have been a better friend.
i could have cared.

speaking to all you people out there.
care for your friends. ask them if they seem like they have a problem or something.
or what happened to me is gonna happen to you.

so right now. i'm not sure what to do.
should i confront her? speak to her? send her a letter? or just ignore it?
i'm just so miserable and i don't know what to do.
oh, and i'm hurt. that she didn't tell me what she felt.
if she really hated me that much, she could at least have shown it.

.. i honestly didn't know she felt that way about me. that the things i did made her hate me. i'm seriously sorry after reading all she wrote. honestly. i didn't know. i don't know what went wrong between us, but it just did. is this one of those friendships that just.. disappear? i don't want to lose her as a friend, but sometimes, it happens and life goes on.

but right now.
life just sucks majorly.
:(

somebody made me cry in school today! :(

during art period, othniel made me sit down and then he told me a scary story.
i wanted to run away but then idiot babi people forced me to stay.
babi you othniel!

i seriously cannot stand scary stories okay, i am probably more wimp than syed when it comes to scary stuff. uggh!
i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate scary things.

so he told me the story and then at the end.. BOO! shouted at me.
IT SCARED THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF ME OKAY WTFWTFWTF

and then i cried. for about 1 or 2 minutes. after that i was angry a little, but then i started laughing. ugh ugh ugh. i hope that teaches you people a lesson to never scare me!

oh, i forgot to mention, before i started crying, i instinctly slapped othniel after he shouted the boo! at me.
sorry for slapping your face othniel.

scary movies/books/whatever suckkk!
i don't see whats so great about being scared shitless until you can't sleep at night.

♥banana.

update: oh yeah, today, i passed by john paul and i said hi to him, then he was like, "hey babe!", i think, and i laughed. its very funny and so cute, the way he says it :D hahaha.

there you go.
i think i need to paint that in extra large letters all over my room wall.
i'm letting go of all the pointless drama in my life.
do whatever you want.
just make sure you take responsibility for your own actions.
and don't drag me into your personal problems. aight? :)

goodbye drama, hello life.

i wonder if and when some people will finally realise that..?
stop playing around, if you're really that lonely, go buy a parrot.

today was a very annoying day. don't ask me why. it just is.
i have annoying days, and happy days, and moody days, and sometimes just plain pissy days. today was a very annoying day.
one day you will realise, that not everything you want, you can and must have. and you will have to deal with it.
some people, just really need to grow up, seriously.
i think you're old enough to be doing things for yourself, and not relying on other people.

♥banana.